A Time To Relax

2011-10-07T04:29:00.000-07:00

MY NEW DISPLAY PIC (=

2011-08-19T07:03:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel that its so hard not to get angry when u dont keep your words.
its like you dont even put in effort

2011-08-04T06:49:00.000-07:00

(yawns. even i need a compainion. what more you ? )

2011-07-30T10:08:00.000-07:00

NUMBED FROM EVERYTHING

I know that you rule your whole world
Thought I could live in it
But I just can’t

You know you’re stomping the roses
Smashing out all the feeling inside of them
It’s bad business
The way you’re stomping the roses
Everyone knows it

2011-06-23T09:02:00.000-07:00

Cause even in my dreams ill be crying tonight
As fist makes contact, I tell myself I need to write with my right

2011-06-23T01:37:00.000-07:00

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name:vanessa
age:15
gender:female
emotions: UNKNOWN

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hahas. still got lots of work to do. havent touch chem. but i will finish everything
sooner or later (=
stressed out with planning cell outing. still, HE clearly told me that if i
run away i will end up like jonah. hmm... i know He'll keep his promise to me and i
put my studies in his hands. i will put him before anything else and just trust him.
he will guide me to the path in life even if i screw up my Os. i know it.

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crushed by the sweetest lips ive never kiss,
how i only wish but its all just a grand finish.
crushed by the softest hands ive always held,
somewhere in my heart thats what i always felt.
baby im so crushed.

And so Im left,
Short of breath
With that heavy feeling in my chest
Baby im so
Crushed

Another night I'll be sitting here all by my own,
picking up the phone,
but I can't get past the dial tone
racking my brain, going insane.
Again and again, I can't keep going this way.

crushed by elise estrada(modified)

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ive been thinking. about what i wanna be when i grow up.
i wonder. i really did. especially last night. where ill be after
the Os. will i even stay in river life church or if i will move
to (---- church)

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ssc camp was fun yet fun at the same time. i missed my eeyorree
though. i bet it missed me too. haha !
it was fun but slack. haha. i think i will miss ssc when i graduate.
i will come back. definitely...

kinda hard to look at my fb photos now. like i look at the smiles on
my face. now it feels so fake. but those smile isnt lah. i really had
fun those times but now it feels so ... far ?
thats why i change my profile pic if u even realised.

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Even though my heart
Is tellin me to stay, beggin me to stay
My self-respect is telling me
I gotta walk away, so

im gonna say what I gotta say
I'm gonna break what I gotta break

I'm gonna hurt I'm gonna cry
I'm gonna tear me up inside
I'm gonna do what I gotta do

unlove you elisa estrada(cut)

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Nobody knows what shes holding back
She hides the bruises with the linen and lace...

It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm

Though the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
But her dreams give her wings
As she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel...

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbours hear but they turn out the light
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
when it comes to morning it will be too late.

concrete angel by DJ boonie(cut)

2011-05-06T07:04:00.000-07:00

yummy. chocolate makes my day :)

haiz. the sec 4 ssc supposed to be able to play the interclass games. it is
our last year to play. but now. change to we must organise.like what the
crap can ? totally fair to the sec 4 hor. this year our last year to play u
know and thanks. totally for getting my hopes of getting to have fun on
interclass games with 4E for ONCE before i graduate. THANKS A LOT. REALLY.
SSC U REALLY ARE THE BEST. aiya, doesnt matter lar hor. im the only one
that is this upset anyway.ill still do it. the next thing u know, u'll ask
us to work on the syf concert. HAHAHA.

miss netball loads.

got a maths paper and science mcq left. oh ya. and listening comphre.
a bit no mood to study liao hor. play mood has been activated.

mouths of people constantly moving,
noise keeps rising.
yet i dont understand a word,
yet i cant hear the voice of tthe world.
want to be tuned only to u,
cause i dont want to be like those fool.

2011-05-01T05:10:00.000-07:00

wooffffff !
haha. i cant believe myself. exam period but im
still watching 101 dalmatians on tv and ice age.
so nice los. so cute !!!!!!!!!!!!!

haixxxxxx ! i should be studying studying studying.
not posting. im already thinking about post exam
stuff. some one slap me pleaseeeeeeeeee !
argh, i really should go back to work cause i dont
want to cry when i get my results ah. . .

more and more people asking me about my faceless
eeyore. haiz. gotta getmy eeyore replaced.

my hands getting too painful from stranggling my
pen and stabbing my paper. so i decided to type
out my hist notes instead. that is why i am on
the com. i think i hit a nerve during my ss paper.
cause ever since my ss paper till now, everytime
i try to write words, my hand aches like man.
after the paper was so bad that when i hold the
pen to write, my hand will tremble. aiyo. gotta
learn to cut my hand some slack.

So if I ask you, would you stay
‘Cause you remind me of a
Ballerina dancing on a wire...

What do you say when you can’t look down
When you feel like you’re ten feet off the ground
What do you do when you’re on the edge
Now you’re here and you got me thinking ’bout

2011-04-15T05:45:00.000-07:00

Broke the school record for 4 x 100 AGAIN
go Ibex relay team - fiona, Peggy, me and lym wei.
Last sports day also break record. Names in order of runner
Haha. Yeah! Haha. Zy was asking me why dont want do 4 x 400 relay.
No thanks. I do not want a rematch with Yi hui ah. haha.

the victory is mine
but it is for God.
the glory is never mine
only alway God's.
priase him, win or lose.
praise him, whatever the mood

2011-04-06T07:06:00.000-07:00

Uncontrollable tears hit the table
Swollen eyes, unrecognizable
A chip slides of your gift
Spirits hard to lift
Like the broken piece
A never ending list
Never to be completed
And forgottened

2011-04-04T05:36:00.000-07:00

FEAK YOU FREAK YOU FREAK YOU -,-
I QUIT U IDIOT,
you think what. FUN FAIR AH -,-

2011-04-02T21:16:00.000-07:00

It might be wonderful
That you're letting me go
It might be wonderful
Cause you'll never know
It might be wonderful
Even I dont know
It might be wonderful
If I just go...

2011-04-02T09:11:00.000-07:00

Went all the way to cck stadium for nothing cause it was closed -.- annoyed. Haha. Never mind. My running shall be in God'd mighty hands.
Hehe. Shall just try my best for my 400 m on Tuesday.

Eh Angela... I think blouse dont like me leh how?

Only when tested and tried,
you will know when someone is really spiritually matured
Now has come the test,
to differentiate me from the rest
See if I will stand
Unavailable to the end

2011-04-01T06:02:00.000-07:00

Chris Medina- What are Words
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent
Just from me and now know I'm meant
To be where I am and I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

ahhhh... running running running for sports day.

2011-03-18T04:56:00.000-07:00

yeah (= follow the leader anyone ?

woohooo ! finished my exams.(=
wanted to go running after the paper but i
got ditched by my running partner -,-
then angela and nicole offered to run with
me lar. but my mood spoiled le so i never
go run. seriously hate it when ppl do last
min stuff ! though my running partner came
back to school after a while to run with me
lar but i dont want to run liao.actually i
very fed up with my running partner. let name
the person O. yeah. i actually quite fed up
with O lar but i know O is going through a lot
so i in front of O like pretend not to be angry
at O. but seriously -,- DITCH DITCH DITCH !
plus is ditch me for someone else. make me
feel so insignificant -,- we plan the run two
or three days before liao but just cause SHE
ask O go then O ditch me -,- fun fair ah ?

on a lighter note, woohoo, fist ssc outing today
to seoul garden. i organise one lehhhh. haha (=
think the juniors didnt really have as much fun
as the seniors but who cares ? haha. i had loads
of fun. haha. just watching Yi Hui eat can amuse
me. haha.oh oh oh ! plus the seniors went to
watch movie. haha. the movie is something something
los angelos i think. haha. quite a nice movie lar.
haahaa.think the person next to me kanna shock by
me cause i totally jump down. haha. during the scary
part. haha. ppl jump up, i jump down. haha.(=
i think seoul garden save a lot of money from the
lack of need to advertise. no need to advertise what
cause everyone who eats in seoul gardern comes out
SMELLING like seoul gardern. haha. got free advertism
liao. haha (=

hope SJ enjoyed his birthday mud bathe present from matt,
ethan,calvin, ZY etc. haha. just wanna say i have no part
in it. haha.

im trying my best to torlerate ur nonsense.
but im not absolutely sure i can.
hmmm.. cause everyone around you can see that you are
being controled. i know you know it too. i wanna help but
you dont want to help yourself so what do you want me to
do ? get your act together. be it with - or not.

dont cry baby dont cry,
cause i never wanna see a tear fall from ur eyes.

if there's a way to heal a broken heart,
tell me now.
cause it definately isnt due to luck,
im here now.
if the road ever gets rough,
be here now.
cause i need some help to heal this heart,
a way that isnt too rough.

its been long enough,
for ive been hurting here.
its been hard to laugh,
when youre no longer near.

yet when i think of it,
i cant remember you being there,
yet i miss it.
the love that was never there ?

that half asleep half awake moment.
just something i wished actually happened.

2011-03-17T06:26:00.000-07:00

i try it over and over again.
cause i want you all to myself .
breathe without getting stuck.
all to myself by ?

2011-03-16T03:28:00.000-07:00

lets pray

haha.exam day tmr and yet im here blogging.
(=

he gotta listen to himself speak man...
i understand why j plus the rest is so
frustrated with him now. i feel frustrated
too. not firm at all. . . but i guess i really
am in no position to make him do anything. his
life his choice.

love makes people do foolish things but does
he even love her ?

2011-03-15T03:52:00.000-07:00

hahas. listen to your own advice girl.

all day long i can hear ppl talking out loud,
but when are their hearts talking,
their souls communicating.

2011-03-15T02:46:00.000-07:00

edited:

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!

remind me never to cross a road with ethan
and matt ever again !
i literally screamed -,- they light already
turn red liao still tell me go go go !
slap thier face lar.

was freezing at mac while studying with jayne
peggy ethan matt ethan and supposingly with HK
too but HK never come. i think i go home liao
then he come.weather so cold today.

chinese oral was -,-

3 times in 2 days. a new record ?

2011-03-13T00:33:00.000-08:00

care for a roll ?

my arms hurts !
my shoulder hurts !
my legs hurt !
im complaining !
growls at pt. haha. learnt a lot from being
a camper instead of camp com. think that
sec 4 ssc learnt a lot from this camp.enjoyed
a lot though to be honest i wasnt looking
forward for the camp but now i dont regret it
(=

wow. march holiday still must go back to
school hor. best, haha.

2011-03-10T06:32:00.001-08:00

BACKING OFF DOESNT MEAN UR BETTER OR IM WEAK.
IT JUST MEANS IM STRONGER AND MORE MATURED
THAN YOU. YOU ARE SUCH A WASTE OF MY TIME.
i rather use the time to eat. haha. hungry.

2011-03-10T03:58:00.000-08:00

can you hear the symphony in my heart ?
what can i do to prove that my love is true?

tmr camp and i have not much idea of what we
are doing. GOSHHH... how can i not know. feels
so weird. haha. too used to being in camp com
and organising. now be camper very very weird.
haha. for this camp, we change all our roles
in ssc except SJ and ethan.haha. lets see how
the camp turns out. FINGERS CROSSED(=

HOUSES
I'm crying inside, gotta see you tonight
I understand and if somebody broke your heart before
But it wasn't me who left the pieces laying on the floor
But it's me who's out here in the rain knocking at your door
Paying the price for all of his lies

[Chorus:]
All of me
When all I get is half of you
Now tell me what am I supposed to do
If all I get is half of you
If all you give is half of you

Wanna be the reason that you never look for love again
Baby girl, I wanna be your lover, your best friend
How we gonna make it if you never gonna let me in
What can I do to prove that my love is true

Until you realize
Look in my eyes
And I'll never let you be betrayed
I'm not that guy, but how can I give you

[Chorus:]

[Bridge:]
Now girl you got me locked up too many times
Got me paying for somebody else's crime
But how can love burn
If it's not return
I need more than this so how can I give

[Chorus:]

SONG- ALL OF ME by varsity.

2011-03-09T04:02:00.000-08:00

what's staring back at me seems so scary...

a tear slips down my face,
an unimaginable pain.

all the hardwork,
gone in vain ?

what should i do ?
so i wont lose ?
wont lose the faith.
to run this race.

heavy hearts,
heavy marks.

just a little pretence,
just a little intense.

no point in moaning,
too much groaning.
pick up a pen,
just keep on going.

2011-03-08T06:23:00.000-08:00

I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA
I HATE DOING CELL BIO DATA

2011-03-08T03:48:00.000-08:00

ahhh !!!! dont take my photo. im camera shy (=

hmm...
htht with a certain someone today. hoped
that it helped. doubt that person reads
my blog but i wish that person all the
best at what she/he is trying to do.

yeah yeah yeah ! today run 2.4km. think
that it is my fastest timing so far.hope
i can improve my timing even more.muhahah
ok lar. i shldnt be so glad now. haha (=
God's watching (= but ouchieee. my legs
feels sore. especially around the knee.
hope by tmr the pain pain will be gone
gone.

today first house meeting. what should
run in sia. 100 ? 200 ? 400 ? 4 x 100 ?
4 x 400? which which which ? i cant decide
which to run in. SOMEONE PLEASE TELL MEE !
and no, im not taking ur idea angela.
just in case u dont know angela's idea,her
idea is... she run for grey, jayne run for
rino, hui run for green, nic for blue, me
for yellow. then all we need is another
person to run for purple. then we all run
same speed to the finish line. haha X3

stop calling me -,- as if i will answer...
btw eh, if i dont have your no. and u call
me, i wont pick up. say first hor. cause i
will suspect that u are my cell admin person
that pesters me to do stuff. haha (=

whats on ur mind?
tell me would u ?
i dont wanna play gussing games

2011-03-04T05:40:00.000-08:00

do i look prim and proper ?

give me the strength i need,
for i'm unsure if i have it.
cause i cant keep giving,
and never receiving.
could it be, could it be ?
-- ---- ----- ----- -- --.

2011-03-03T04:26:00.000-08:00

im emoing. i have no sticker ! haha

2011-03-03T03:51:00.000-08:00

meow-ouch.
my head is stuck, HELP ?!

hahas. looking forward to movie day tmr.
yeah yeah (= hm.... im feeling pretty
boredddd !!!!!!!!! haha. i already
feel like sleeping. haha. hm....

should i quuiiittt ? theres indeed more
reason for me to leave than to stay. i dont
like the stress no more but im in love
with -------.i dont think i will. but i
think i will become one of the more not
dedicated ones. cause i really dont see a
point.

angela, remember listen take your sweet time
by JM(=
eh, haha, remember the so called sad songs we
listened today. haha. like miss independant
hor !!! haha. totally sad hor. haha. in the
end i still eat ice cream when i go home leh.
jealous ? haha. today ur burger a bit cute hor?
haha. make us run to chinese class then in the
end we not that late. haha.the slient that
taunted us with the cold breeze frightened us
too right? haha.opps what did i tell u about
showing off today. haha.

gosh i need to brush of this self pity.

let me be the one,
telling u that it is alright.
let me be the one,
sharing the smiles and tears you cry.

2011-03-02T02:59:00.000-08:00

looking for me ?
here i am =]

2011-03-02T02:29:00.001-08:00

lolz. i now become scared of either leaving
my house or coming back home. can i move
house ? ahhhh !!!! gosh -,- so scaryyyyy...
pathetic. i gotta get over it man. by this
week. i gotta get over the fear.haha, i
need to constantly remind myself that God
is my protector and i shall rest in him.

HEY ANGELA, THIS PART OF MY POST U MUST
REMEMBER FOR LIFE HOR:
i waited 2 plus hours for angela mak chicken
wing. -,- wait so lonnngggg. sweats*
must be APPRECIATE ME HOR. haha. need me to
give u the defination of appreciation ? haha.
i think dont need hor ? u very familar with
the word liao (=

gosh get a life lar hor ? i know shorts for
like so long ? it is impossible for him to
say THAT alright ?? his a gentleman unlike
you who needs to make stories about him hor ?
even angela also know that can never be true.
dont need to think also know shorts wont say
that los. -,-

give me a little space in your heart.
i just want to be a friend, we just want to be ur friend.
cant u tell ? we arent interested in taking advantage of you.
i understand u were hurt before but cant u tell ?
i aint tat person. cant you tell ?
we arent tat person. let us come a little closer ?
i really dont know if i can keep trying.

clock stop clock stop.
and i dont hear no more ticking.
when the clock stop clock stop,
all we got is wishful thinking
cause im not saying never,
but we cant be together.
its a quater past our loving time

2011-02-25T23:24:00.000-08:00

raining cats and dogs now
but i have to leave house...
sighs.

dont u get it ?
im serious when i said,
i rather hate you for who you are
than who you pretend to be. yet
your acting. if u r going act when
you come to talk to me, listen, i
dont want to talk to you ...

2011-02-24T07:32:00.000-08:00

SLEEPIIIEEEEE......

RUBS SHOULDER. gosh my shoulder hurts and feels sore.
dont know why but it hurts.think cause i study too
much and my body ache. i dont even one to move now.
did i mention? im able to throw a frisbee forehand
full court. IN UR FACE SHAO XIANG ! still say that i
woundnt be able to learn how to throw without ur helf.
i PROVED u wrong. muhahaha, now sx owes me money. he
better pay up for his bet. he still say what girls
cannot throw one and without his coaching i sure cant.
yeah yeah yeah. i proved him wrong. i can i can. (=
weee... i accomplished something today (=

2011-02-24T00:48:00.000-08:00

weee... anybody up for ice cream ?
haha. 2 more paperrrrsss !

2011-02-23T01:37:00.001-08:00

haha. to be honest, it always cross my mind to
do the above but i guess it will be pretty
lammmmmeee

2011-02-23T01:22:00.000-08:00

"And I can't help listen
To my heart missing your touch
Ever since you've been gone
I try to block it out
But it's going round and round
You're stuck in my head like a song

So I just sing a lullaby by
Baby, bye bye
But my heart is saying it's not the end
So I just sing a lullaby by
Baby, don't cry
Cause I know I'm gonna see you again
See you again"
-bye bye bye by jackie boy.

2011-02-22T04:05:00.000-08:00

haha. would anyone like a geo workbook?
sec 4 one it think. haha. cause my mum
bought a geo textbook when im a hist
student !!!! haha.

gave my extra sec 4/5 ss textbook to angela
liao cause appearently i asked my mum if we
have the sec 4/5 ss textbook already. she
says no but i seem to have a impression that
i saw it somewhere before.
she says dont have. so i buy . i think around
one week later i found the textbook in the
highest shelve. ny brother's old ss textbook.
WASTE MONEYYYY !!!!!

2011-02-19T04:30:00.000-08:00

another form of tlw ring.
nice right ? (=

haha. thurday night didnt really sleep well.
but hor, friday i felt so awake till the ssc
meeting only then i sleep. haha.
I WONDER WHY I SO AWAKE HOR !!!!
haha. i feeling so hungry now but i dont feel
like i eating. haha. kinda werid right ?
cant wait to see the ssc camp thing come out.
haha, just in case any ssc juniors read my
blog (doubt so), i cant say the activities.(=
HOWEVER, i DONT look forward to the next
ssc meeting. wont be as fun as the friday
meeting one los. cfm. haizzz !
but its the little hard moments that make you
love the big happy moments right ? (=
yeah ! today i went to school for chinese ip.
haha. i so happy for what ? (=
exams coming !!!! TRIGO PLEASE DONT KILL ME.
CHEMISTRY PLEASE DONT KILL ME ETHIER.
EXAMSSSS DONT KILL ME. BE NICE ...

amazingly, a song that brought me
to the point of almost crying
could become a song that makes me
beam like madddd ~

2011-02-18T03:29:00.000-08:00

life moves on.
i move on.
we move on.
have you ?

time doesnt stop for you.
its how you stop time.

2011-02-17T03:20:00.000-08:00

"Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you."

2011-02-12T03:28:00.000-08:00

"dance like you want to
dance like you need to
dance like you love to

smile like you want to
smile like you need to
smile like you love to "

hehe. still coughing but fighting the
sickness off. im pro los. i can do it.
just watch me.hahas,sometimes just
feels that everyone seems too busy.
too busy for me that is. too busy to
slow down their fast pace lives.oh
btw, i think the song by jesse called
anybody isnt too bad...

http://www.michaelmacaulay.com/street.htm
he's a great artist

2011-02-11T03:47:00.000-08:00

i cant believe i alomost told u.
good thing im clear headed today
plus i type already then erase.

wed, the first time i admit it.
wed, the first time u determined it.

2011-02-05T06:12:00.001-08:00

cute doggieeee~

yeah !! finished all my homework.
can u believe it ?
oh wait. i still have my tuition homework.
oh and not to mention a test to study for.
oh crabbbbbb !!!!!!!
oh whateverrrr !
but at least i finished my other homework (=
haha. can u believe it ?
i finished my compo lehhhhhhhh.
the one that i have been owing for so long.
but i good girl los. i got ask teacher for
grace period one OK !?!
hehe. VANESSA IS A GOOD GIRL.
haha. when im blogging, i feel like im talking
to myself cause no one reads it. haha.
ok maybe not no one cause i know my darling angela
reads it hor ?
i today planning to type a lot a lot
so that SOMEONE cant complain that i post short
short post only. haha.
this two days have been quite fruitful for me
cause i did a lot of homework lehhhh !
hm.. i miss church. i really miss my friends
in church. hahas. quite sad hor ?

oh ya. did i tell you ?
im in love with victoria justice.
she can dance so well, great voice and so prettieee.
JEALOUSSSSSSS !!!!hahas. first girl singer
i actually like leh. hmmm.. but seriously,
a dance moves are like OMG sia. PRROOOOOO.

been a freaking long time since i have gone
for a run. have i grown fatter ? haha. doubt it.
but i scared sia.... later stamina drop then
i will totally cry leh. really, i love me stamina.
haha. can show off mah. CHEH. kidding lar.
i just love running cause can relax.
the reason why i love running is that i dont
think about anything besides the destination
when im running. helps me relax when there are a
lot of things on my mind.so now you know. shssss.
cannot tell anyone ah. haha.

maybe i read in between the lines too much ?

2011-02-02T06:05:00.000-08:00

it hurts me to see you hurt.
it makes me feel a little happy seeing you smile.
but this doesnt mean i love you.
it just means i care for you.

2011-01-28T05:34:00.000-08:00

woohoo. lost to nanhua but the game was
fun. we lost but we loved the sport.
we enjoyed the sport and thats the most important
isit ? we cheering after the match. so high
but the nanhua win but kanna scolded like mad.
haiyo. so contradicting. maybe its cause we
actually gave them a fight. yeah. go netballers(=

can i change a thing without betraying anyone ?
i dont want to hurt, neither do i want you to hurt.
but everyone knows thats impossible.
so what choice do i have ?
is it selfish to let u hurt? i just dont know.

2010-11-17T07:52:00.000-08:00

no one to talk to.
but yet so much to say.
hiding behind the situations.
without much resolutions.
thinking over the reasonable.
and yet not point being not unreasonable.
what do you do
when there is nth to do ?
what do you say
when there is no one to talk to ?
what was i thinking ?

2010-11-03T06:14:00.000-07:00

it feels better that i know there
shouldnt be many people or even no one
reading my blog anymore.
then i can be more truthful with myself

2010-11-03T06:11:00.000-07:00

tell me now,
which of what you say can i believe ?
which part is the absolute truth ?
when will you stop and tell me the truth ?

2010-11-02T05:31:00.000-07:00

FORGET IT OK ?
ill just be ur dog for now.

2010-10-02T06:31:00.000-07:00

no netball is making me crave
for a few laps of running.
GRRRRRRRR,
if home sick is when u miss home,
im running sick !

2010-08-22T04:43:00.000-07:00

weeeeee........
faster angela. i wanna go out.
haha. exams are overrrrr...
hiax. mid autumn celebration change to
11 sept. idk to be happy or sad leh.
but think i'm kinda sad. haha.
11 sept still on duty. till late at night
than can go home. hmmmm....

2010-08-10T07:00:00.000-07:00

lol. u sms i never reply,
as if u call i will pick up -.-
seriously los. i'm not stupid.
i know how to off my phone when u continue
calling.

2010-08-09T02:41:00.000-07:00

DIAO.
ur asking a favour from me and yet ur
so demanding. even those not close to
u also think ur demanding.
i'm just sad i'm complaining about u.
i dont wish to but its so irritating.
IM STUDYING. if i dont do well are
u going to take that result ? no right ?
then ? leave me alone men.
peole studying still VAN ? VAN ? me
irritating u know. -.-
people dont reply cause they dont want to
reply right ? no matter how many times
u van ? i also wont feel like replying
right ? lameeeeeeeeeeeeeee..........
i dont even like being called van.
u van ? somemore the more i dont want reply
right -.- u and ur lame rules. u and ur
lame work. DO IT URSELF. THERE'S A REASON
I AM AVOIDING YOU. i said i didnt want to do
it right ? but nnnoooooo u wont listen.
u still had to make me do it -.-

2010-07-29T02:42:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah yeah! can i just stay on the tree ?

2010-07-27T21:59:00.000-07:00

it's a nice duet.
BY Rihanna and Neyo: hate that i love you

exam's coming T.T
lol i pass up my unit 17 already.
but teacher cant find it.
probably have to do it again -.-
irritating.

2010-07-23T06:17:00.000-07:00

lol. fan rowed his/her eyes at me !
diao. sad leh. over stuff like xxD
make me feel so stress. make me feel
like i not putting in effort. T.T
how ? should listen to WM and stop
bothering about what ppl think.
but it's so hard.

> a timely message along with a
timely sms prevented many things<

~God is still watching out for me~

2010-07-08T07:21:00.000-07:00

why why why ? germany lose T.T
sadden.
Loved my one min of fame (insider with jayne)
cant believe i got my one min of
fame <3
wah. i think today is the first day
out of two weeks that i go home with my darling
angela. our timing always clash one then cannot
go home together. actually today also diff
time end but i wait for her so can go home tgt.
XD

lets hope i wont see THEM tmr. otherwise will be
4 times in a row out of 4 days.

wah!!got a bit moody today cause of some lame
thing. only 3 ppl know what it is. ask me
and i will tell u. is super duper lame reason
to be upset. but STILL, i xing tong. then sad.
a bit a bit lar. HIAX

2010-07-06T06:10:00.001-07:00

CELL ADMIN STOP WASTING MY TIME -.-
~frustrated~

2010-07-06T04:11:00.001-07:00

GERMANY. win win win.
haha. XD
must win!

WHATEVER !
i dont care what they think !
as long as i am happy.

yeah ! netballie carnival on sat.
sad thing is that i will miss service AGAIN
but happy got carnival.
eh... for those who dont know what's a
netball carnival. it is like a netball competition
between different schools. just that it aint the
west zone competition. EXCITED.

ANGELA MAK WING YAN.
u better not be late tommorrow

2010-07-01T07:57:00.000-07:00

please dont harm the frisbee !
please bring it back to me in one piece.

phew. this week of school. BUSY MAN. totally.

2010-06-12T21:33:00.000-07:00

SICK. since sat. today much better
but still a little sick T.T

2010-06-06T21:32:00.000-07:00

please please please.
i'm so craving for outing T.T
please please please organise!
i'm bored bored bored.
faster faster faster. i dont want to rot man.
haha. i keep telling myself to do hw
but i keep pushing it back man. haha.
ok lar. i gotta go for training. buaix.

we're moving on and we'll be ok...

2010-05-21T21:02:00.000-07:00

back back back man.
expedition from sunday to thursday.
friday expedition people given permission to
miss school. but if they want results can go
school at 11 so i did that. duh.
so i kinda missed one whole week of school.
did go netball training on friday too.
happy to be touching netball again.
so long never play le leh. got craving for netball one.
exams lar. make cca suspended.

results
results aint that bad. aint that good either.
results drop lar but is my own fault. english
shot up while chem slide down. -.-

expedition
omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg
expedition was fun like siao !!!!!!!!!!
we like trek up a mountain which according to the person
was like 4 times bukit timah hill's height. i dont believe sia.
so high meh ? dont feel like it.
haha. when trekking zhenyu created a song thanks to inspiration by suqi.
super funny lors the song.
kayaking was fun fun fun fun.
one whole day kayaking leh. haha.
kayak till my hands want to break can ?!
but sleep le next day not pain le.
tian en got very bad blisters though.
i didnt. heng ah !
we went to this village too. then we saw the
traps they used to catch the wild animals.
cool plus scary los. poor animals. haha.
good thing i never see them use the trap on
actual animals other wise i sure freak out.
we get to try the blow pipe with dart thigy.
fun. they say when they use the dart one
they will usually use with poison on the dart.
O.o ofc the one we try no poison lar !
on one other day we also kayak one whole day
to this beach which was our last campsite.
dk why hand not pain. haha. XD
LAST DAY COME BACK. funny.
at custom the officer tell tian en, brendan, joann
and aoshi change passport photo. haha.
aoshi one most funny.
i really wished i could share my whole experience with
your but it would be quite impossible.

i miss angela mak wing yan lar.
she going overseas this week. i just came back.
lol. good los. like that we miss each other.
haha.

2010-05-12T04:27:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeeee....
yesterday was fun XD XD
enjoyed enjoyed enjoyed.
but now SLEEPY SLEEPY SLEEP

2010-05-07T01:55:00.000-07:00

heard that ? I DONT CARE TOO.

weee..... exams are sooooonnnnn over.
monday final paper. then think will have
outing on tuesday if SOMEONE able to organise
in time. hiaz. i leaving on sunday.
sad to leave but glad to go. werid right ?
like cant wait to go the expedition but
like wanna go more outing with friends too.
haha. today i no school cause bio exam,
i dont take bio so dont need go.
hope the paper was ok for the bio people.
alot of my friends taking bio.
yeah yeah. when exam over will post even more more.
exam period will post less less XD

2010-03-29T07:14:00.001-07:00

frustrated ~
ahhhhhhhhhhhh
save me~

2010-03-27T21:38:00.000-07:00

when a maths bites back. haha.
just kidding. i like a maths pretty much

2010-03-23T03:58:00.000-07:00

It's one exam after another,
then why ?
why does each one matter ?

i need to loosen up.
studies isnt everything right ?
haha. though it doesnt mean i can slack.

2010-03-19T04:35:00.000-07:00

the outing was great.
haha. wasnt as plan but great all the same.

went roller blading and bowling as well =)
best score is above 100. yeah !

roller blading was funny.
got drenched while trying to save jason
and benjamin. haha.

yu heng was so happy he never fall down
then jx go push his lightly to scare him
only but yu heng kanna shocked then going to
fall down. then jx quickly reach out to
stabilise yu heng but when he do that jx lost
balance then he let go of yu heng.
then yu heng fall. haha.

all the guys fall down at least one.
all the girls fall down zero times.
haha.
everyone went roller blading. haha (=

bowling ! nicole pro sia...

i enjoyed every moment of the outing with you all (=

2010-03-16T06:06:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah. finish my course !
no more man. done !
clap hands and smile please.
the people there have at LEAST have
2 and a half years of playing hockey.
me, shao jun and atirah have NONE.
haha. but we got through it together!
yeah man. SSC training camp was meaningful.
LAUGH TOGETHER, PLAY TOGETHER, WORK TOGETHER AND CRY TOGETHER
SSC is a melody,
SSC is a family.

enjoyed the second night the most. hope all of
you remember what happen. i love you guys.
jia you jia you jia you. remember our goals.

i havent do all my hw !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
except one which isnt really counted.
cause i realy busy los. not excuse.

say i love you and mean it,
then i will believe it.

2010-03-15T05:24:00.000-07:00

i freaking tired.
now think if anyone slightly
irritate me i also will angry.
ok lar. i go study liao.

2010-03-05T20:27:00.000-08:00

woooooooohoooooooooo.
Cts are over.
apparently i dont want think
about how i did for the papers
but this person getting on my
nerve by constantly talking abot
which i dont wish to think about.
grrrrrrr!
dont bug me !

i like hist !

class school trip ~
go parliament house after ct over.
lol. but ok lar. the place was nice
but really would prefer to go outing
with HCC then go parliment house.
bowling ! ECP !

after come back from parliment house,
i go walk walk walk. oh ya, i got
watch stanely and zhengjie play tt
and i suck at that game.
after a while sj come join. then
he and stanely play.

today me cousin's son's birthday.
haha. XD
~~one shot~~

2010-02-25T04:51:00.000-08:00

did a little of acelearning
just now. people ! remember
to start doing acelearning
soon. closing date on monday.
STRICTLY NO EXTENTION ONE.
supposed to do my chinese
mindmap now but apparently
i gave up trying to do it.

English exam is over !
count down to end of exams
starts here. next paper is
history along with chinese
on tuesday. really really
cant wait to get chinese
over and done with. out of
my head without needing to
care about it.

do you know u almost caused me to ruin my future ?
when u said i mixed with bad friends and turned bad,
i really wanted to show you what it really meant to be bad.
when i thought maybe i could talk to you about my problems,
u became one of my problems.THANKS LOADS. open your eyes to
see what's in front of you all along. i aint the one that changed.
you just simply didnt open your eyes last year.
i'm sorry u got scolded by HER but cant u see it aint totally my fault ?
tired of struggling with you in my life. it hurts too much.

thanks to banana for making me NOT freak out
when i thought english paper was 1 hour.
haha. caused you sleep later. sorry!

2010-02-18T06:44:00.000-08:00

tmr got training
but also got prayer
meeting again. los.
so guess i have to leave
training early again~
today was supposed to
have CHEMISTRY extra lessons
but then cancelled.
supposed to go back with HJ
that group along with angela
today but idk why. HJ they
all disappeared once again.
dk why.

angela was too tired in the train.
she was too tired generating
her own electricity. haha. inside
joke.

this person keep listening to my
convos i dont like it !
even if there is nothing to hide.

jie - dont make me greedy lar. XD
though i would LOVE it (=
~~dont make me addicted~~

2010-02-14T23:28:00.000-08:00

yeah! thanks to the
people that wished me
happy cny and vday XD
and ofc thanks to that
one person who wished
me happy vday and forgot
to wish happy cny. blur
leh that person. haha.
cute (=

2010-02-13T06:26:00.000-08:00

this dumb flu is getting
on my nerves. literally.
feel so edgy. think the
slightest comment, sound,
movement or change in
environment can set me off
sia. so weird. like so stuffy,
and i am having some problem
trying to shake the sleepiness
from myself. slept alot but
still tired. even when i sleep
also keep waking up.
hope tonight's sleep will be
better.
irritated over the giddy feeling
whenever i get up from sitting
down or sleeping.

dont worry will be back to my high
self soon.

still went to school on friday
even though already not very
well. haha. at least hui jie,
angela and jie xiang were
observant enough to tell i was
sick/tired. haha.

the fire drill made all of us sit in
the field under the hot sun. i was
complaining about that. school gave us
biscuits and milo. though i wasnt well
i took the biscuits XD at least i refrained
from the milo leh. not bad le la.

went to eat lunch after school.
this dumb person keep asking me if i
sure i dont want to go home to rest.
i was hungry ok ? and i wont collapse
lar. keep saying what i say i ok then
later collapse. i wont lors. LMSO can ?

its easy for me to tell when ur angry or when ur just playing,
or maybe its easy only when u allow me to know ur emotions.
2 times is rare enough. can i ask one thing ?
ALWAYS let me know when ur angry so that i can share ur pain
or anger with you.
so i can cheer you up, so u feel better, so you dont have to keep
it within and so that you can trust someone enough to tell them
ur temperamental side. can i ever be that person ?

2010-02-11T04:36:00.000-08:00

weeeeewooooweeeeewooooooo...
back home. tmr half day right ?
idk sia. should be bah.
to me it doesnt matter if half
day of not. what matters is no
lessons. haha (=
if u get what i mean.
yeah got HCC shirt coming up.
those who know what HCC means,
dont reveal better. my opinion la.
but comfirm got some irritating big
mouth go say out one.
cant find my newspaper article
question paper so appearently i think
i going to do article report randomly.
without following the question.
hope ms lee dont mind.

~~glad to make u smile~~

2010-02-04T02:59:00.000-08:00

fun.
i bought string today.
lol. as if you want to
know. haha. loves loves
loves loves

2010-02-02T02:40:00.000-08:00

haiz.
thanks ah.
otherwise sure one emo
kid down there one (=

look whose talking !
i not the dumb dumb (=

2010-02-01T06:45:00.000-08:00

VANESSA IS HIGH TODAY.
really really high.
i think you say anything
to me also can make me laugh.
lol. really sia.
mr yeo say something i laugh
untill cannot stop then
daryl stare at me untill i stop.
how ? the tree eating the car !
LOL. the phrase above is super the
NOT funny but untill now i still
laughing ! nvm only one person
besides me will get the tree joke.
i addicted to the song second time
around and baby! nice nice nice.
ok lar. tmr still got school.
everyday happy like THAT day can liao
(=

REWIND BACK FOR 5s.
smiles*

2010-01-31T20:28:00.000-08:00

hungggggggriiiieeee(=
nobody want study with me
today. haha. all want go
home ...

2010-01-29T02:16:00.000-08:00

how how how how how how how
urrrrrrrrrrrr fault.
what am i talking about man.
camp was FUN.
i lost a set of clothes with
my 1f class t shirt sia. sadden.
hope either nic or jayne took it
by accident. i quite sure it isnt
in the tent.

super tired lar. campfire night.
led part of cheer. i voice got
sore throat. then when i say the
yo baby yo baby yo ! my voice
came out funny. haha(=

lol. i come home super tired then
i see laptop the letters all
like white hairs. can see properly
now still a bit a bit.

went to lot one eat after camp.
at LJS. had a good meal and chat.
(= must like that more.

grrr...banana if i hear them
say that, i warn u first. i will
scold them. i promise i will.

irritating + irritaing = make people angry

2010-01-26T06:40:00.000-08:00

so lao qui
today. shant tell you to
that what happened. haha.
other incident.
took super long to find
things in NTUC today. lols.
going to camp starting
from tomorrow to friday.
so pardon me if i dont reply
smses. (=

2010-01-24T02:43:00.000-08:00

how how how how how how how ?
i thought i pass up my eng wks
liao but i look into my file then
the wks is in my file leh ? how
how how how how how ? >:(
hope ms yap wont scold me T.T
not on purpose one sia. somemore
that work is i specially stay back
in school to do one leh . how how
how how how ? sianed.

massive overload with maths this week
end sia. four sets of maths work
excluding me tuition stuff.
but one set i already almost finish
lar. so yeah....

i like 3E loads but i miss 2F a lot lot.
i dont wanna drift from my friends in 2F
sia. but i guess change is unavoidable.
IMY 2F (=

got ssc outing on sat. think i will
choing go church after the outing.

wished u never said sorry.
wished i never forgave you.
wished i never fell deeper.
wished i could turn back time.
wished we wont hurt.
wished it didnt matter to me or you.
wished wishing came true.

2010-01-21T02:10:00.000-08:00

woah ! changed seats.
seating second row !
yeah promoted.
haha. more fan for
second row.
think the girl beside
me very quiet one then
think will be hard for
me to 'connect with her'
sitting kinda beside
smurf too so yeah. thats
a good thing. at least
got smurf to talk to.
daryl in front of me.
jayne beside daryl. haha
lol. all the 2f peeps.

think i made daryl angry
today. sorry XD
dont angry leh.

went to lot one with dar angela,
jx and jason. jason and jx eat
mos burger while me angela
eat cookies cause on diet.
as if lar ! haaha. eat cookies
for diet ? LOL. yeah. but that
was my lunch. wasnt that hungry
anyway. BUT THANKS TO SOMEONE,
I eat out. then actually want eat
out a bit then go home eat proper
lunch. but i reach home so late
then no mood to eat leh. lol.
i blame YOU, POTATO.

blablabla.
oh ya this reminds me.
mr yeo said i need go on diet ! during
history/ss . no lar.
he use me as random eg. only lar.
lol. ok not funny ....

thank you. you're the best
(this phrase very funny meh ?)
why u laugh ?

2010-01-11T05:57:00.001-08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i am screaming ~

2010-01-06T04:07:00.000-08:00

sian.
after netball so tired still
must do HW. GRRR...
want faster do then can sleep (=
sec 3 the books are heavy !
finger nail marks from mandy and
nigiha still there. sian.
nigiha the grabbing and nails more
pain then mandy's but mandy's mark
last longer.
wanna faster do hw. buaiz

2010-01-05T08:10:00.000-08:00

:)
gUn
met up with the rest for break
today. yesterday first day of
school super tiring. ssc plus
netball. reach home super super
tired la. haha. miss 2f like
siao ! but after today better
bah. think 3E a bit, oh wait,
very QUIET lar. how ? cannot
take it sia. and my maths teacher
which is also my form teacher
pro sia. he remember a lot of
names liao. surprised he know my
name leh. shocked dao. thought
only ms lee know. haha. btw
for all classes me, jayne and HJ
all same band etc.
chem not so sure...
should be sleeping soon. tmr still
got training leh . nights.
miss ya 2Fers.

i was holding on just long enough to know,
i should be letting go.
- ----- is enough. enough i say

2010-01-02T23:23:00.001-08:00

did u forget ?

2009-12-31T06:21:00.000-08:00

the pic above is my group identity.
super nice right ? i love it man (=
AIR FORCE ! yeah yeah yeah yeah !
love the whacky games we played.
crab soccer
floorball with broom sticks.
and captain ball with
cabbage, star fruit, papaya and
raw CHICKEN (=
eewwwwww.... (=
justine so enthu when playing the
captain ball sia. haha. good thing
he is my team one. haha (=

yeah, if you have read my other post,
i need to do cell t design.
some insane person J call me draw 4
diff design leh. then only choose one
out of the 4. then the rest go where ?
dustbin ah ?

went wild wild wet today with angela darling,
lucia, jayne, daryl, jason and isaac YR.
lol. super fun. haha. we played the big big
float one. haha. wonder if you understand
which it is. haha. yep. then jayne scream
like crazy. oh ya, the small kid with this
adult also never scream then jayne scream
till like that. LOL sia...

other float, isaac what the crap lar. haha
he screamed super loud LIKE SOME GIRL.
i was thinking. what the crap ? which girl
scream untill like that. haha.
then turn my head is isaac. super funny.
he scream till like super funny. plus he
do the hand action thingy. super super super
funny lar !!!!!!!!!!!! he on purpose one lar.
haha.

got one time we pose for the cam then the cam
only took isaac the shorts -.-
we all post sia. then the stupid cam. take
isaac shorts nia. haha.super fun today.
LOVED IT. MUST GO OUT TOGETHER AGAIN AGAIN.
after O levels. COUNT DOWN PARTY. IDK !

relinking time ~
please tell me if i still havent relink u.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
jie i super excited. wish can faster (=
shhsssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there must be more then this
keep on DANCING

2009-12-30T09:18:00.000-08:00

back and lazy to post.
ahhhhhh. must design
cell t shirt. best is
by this sat. must draw draw
draw. apparently i am to
draw ? ahhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-12-25T07:57:00.000-08:00

going to malaysia for camp
tmr morning. will be back on 29 dec
bye ...will you miss you!
(= sia lar (=
hehe. (=

2009-12-24T08:58:00.000-08:00

I WANNA WATCH THE STAR LIGHT SHINE
IN MY EYES (=
feeling hungry O.o

2009-12-24T07:03:00.000-08:00

went bowling today.
cheh. 2nd last game was
the best game. last game
not shiok at all.
movie was great too.
actually wanted to watch
at lot one but hf wanted
go westmall. movie with
darling angela was nice.
we were super noisey!
haha. think the guys
beside angela might have
been irritated. i would
have been if i were them.
and angela, next time, i
dont want sit with u le.
u make me go high. haha.
this man in the movie ran
into this horse. then the
man fly and horse fly. then
me and angela ask each other
or say something like poor
horse. haha. so funny.
i <3 angela

2009-12-23T18:59:00.000-08:00

How could you doubted that i'll ever get distracted by
Any other guy no matter if he ever caught my eye
We just need time, some time to connect
What I'm telling you now
Hope you never forget, yeah

I don't know what I do if I ever lost you
And all the loneliness I will go through
BUT IF YOU WANNA LEAVE I WON'T STOP YOU
COZ I DON'T WANT YOU IF YOU DON'T WANT ME
To be the one, the only one you wanna run to
Baby boy you know I just began to
Realize what's important to me
So don't leave, don't leave

2009-12-23T17:48:00.000-08:00

yeah yeah !!!!
i finished all my hw
except all those maths
qn that i dont know.
(= including chinese !
wow ! give u a peom since
i am so happy :

the sky is high.
so sky asked why ?
then sky said hi !
and then said bye =)

going to camp soon~

2009-12-22T06:05:00.000-08:00

woah. finished my
second CHINESE book review.
haha. so happy. yummy !
i want go eat my supper liao.
yeah yeah ! i miss good times
with 2F leh. how ? i wonder
next year who is my classmate.

all i can say is poor guy with
the milo. XD

2009-12-21T02:01:00.000-08:00

THANK YOU DARYL AND JIE (:
muhaha. thanks for helping me
complete my first CHINESE holi hw.
took super long to finish it.
but yeah. thanks to both of u, finished
it in time for dinner. yeah yeah !
thanks loads !!!!
still got two more chinese hw. but
enough for today ! phew.
keep asking daryl how write this,
how write that.
then keep asking jie for new ideas.
muhahaha. i finished it ! yeaness. (=

~~miss uuuuueeee~~

2009-12-17T02:22:00.001-08:00

been quite long since
i posted a post that u
guys would actually
understand. haha.
finished my maths hw !
except those i dont know
how to do. hahas. finished
a little of chem too but not
much of it. haha. but a bit
is still SOME of it.haha.
sad. today cant go out with
S cause mum say no. hahas.
never mind.was looking
forward but oh well. . .
tmr got match with inova JC.
lol. i very sure i spelt the
name wrongly. haha.
oh ya. must do journal for
netball. coach want. havent do
yet. going to do later.

2009-12-16T01:16:00.001-08:00

agrh

2009-12-15T04:58:00.000-08:00

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